Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.


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why?
why?
WHY?

why must i be the grown up?
why must i be the one providing everything?
can't i be the one who leans on someone?
can't i be the one that ask for things?
why must i be the one giving things all the time?

i'm really tired of all this..
tired of giving..

i know that God will bless those who gives wholeheartedly..
giving has always make me happy..
but...
when giving has become a habit for others to take..
when giving becomes your responsibility..
it just takes a toil..
giving becomes unwilling..
giving becomes a different thing..

the reason that i work now..
is not to save up or make myself feel better...
but instead..
i have became the provider..
for 6 persons...
and now, i don't get to enjoy..
the result of my sweat, blood and energy..
instead..
all has been taken away...
it's just so tiring..


i just feel like leaving..
just leaving everything..



after running..
calves hurts..
throat burning..
i feel so human..


today..
sliced my finger..
blood dripping non stop..
feel so so human...




please..
i ask of you..
please stay close..
don't go..
i need you..



i just simply love going for community prayer on tuesdays..
i just feel the presence of God there while i'm praying..
God talks and perform wonders..


last Sunday's message..
"Changes"
speaks to me..

there are so many changes in our lifes..
in our family..
in our workplace..
in our relationship with friends..
but if we just stay at one place..
when the changes come..
we will be not be pleasing God..
we need to move on..
despite of all the changes..
changes happen so as to make us grow..
grow physically,
mentalitly,
and spiritually too..
there may be a period of mourning..
a period of sadness..
but after a short while,
we have to move on..
and get along with life..
may God help us..

my lappy is finally VIRUS-FREE!!! =)



God
make me strong
make me wise
to help the people
who needs me
to comfort the people
who are in sadness
to be strong
for the people
who needs to be hold on


God
be with the people
who needs you
who seeks you
who needs strength


bring everybody to you
the undesireable
the untouchable
the unflavoured


bless her with good result
bless her with good health



this has been a while since i last typed something into this space of mine.. all because of viruses and technology that is to be blamed.. but if i blame technology, it would be silly and stupid because.. there won't be computer or even blogs that tells our stories..

probably it's a good thing that viruses invaded.. somehow, without going online, i can get the excuse of sleeping earlier than before, that is, like as early as 9 at night.. have good night rest and wake up early to work fresh.. :)

this few days i have been jogging around my neighbourhood, early in the morning( due to sleeping early at night) before i go to work.. and i found out that it's really nice to have a run somehow.. keeps your mind fresh and off a lot of things..

full time work is not a joke.. it can be a torture for some or an enjoyment for others.. it's totally different from being a trainee.. more responsibilities.. but the stress is more or less there.. this is my second week.. but i have already feel that everything is weighing down on me everyday.. i guess i need to let it all down..

sometimes, somehow, i feel like closing up is a better choice than sharing.. why do i say that? hmmm.. because.. by closing up, you won't get hurt that much, you won't depend on people that is around you and that you won't burden them.. at the same time, let the problems out with tears.. but there's cons.. you will feel very terrible, very lonely, very tired and weary.. keeping all of that in your heart may make you strong.. but lets you fall deeper and deeper into depression..

so which one will you choose?? hmmmm....




hope i wish i can leave this country now for a while and enjoy outside the world.. being carefree.. and out of the problems..
but i have God to take them away..
So God..
take all the problems away..
just for now..
that's all i'm asking for..






hope that you're doing well
hope that you're coping with your studies
jia you :)

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Crying

as i was talking to Auntie Candy(Jovin's mum) this afternoon, somehow, we talked to the topic of crying.. she said that crying makes a person feel better.. makes a person feel happy..

i feel like crying..
tears are welling up in my eyes..
but they seems not to be heavy..
nor do they have the thought of leaving..
thus..
no tears are shed..
not like Jovin..
she has the freedom..
to cry free..
to laugh free..
without any restriction..

i feel like crying..
all feelings inside..
they just tired me down..
tears bring feelings out..
but..
no tears are out..
so..
feelings are still..
inside..


Will anyone cares about how i feel?
am i too understanding?
am i taken for granted?
i don't know..






please come back..




God take me..

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last Tuesday went to bird pask some how, because my friend forgot to let her supervisor to sign her logbook.. so somehow, i got to tour the bird park for FREE!! how cool is that?! haha!! watch the bird show and the birds(of course!)


through this past week, i have seen how selfish people are and their way of don't-care-ness.. props undone, and no one to help.. but they want to win.. how? haiz.. i hope something will change from this lesson..






to the someone(you know who you are):
i know that this few days, you have went through a lot.. but God is always there for you.. though you're tired, you can tab to God's unlimited strength.. life's short.. but though short, you will be with her forever with God forever in heaven, beside God. meanwhile, remember her in your sweetest and the best memories that you have with her.. because God has saved her for you..