Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.


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Ha Ha Ha~ Finally, the time has come for me to stay out.. Don't need to stay in camp ANYMORE~~!!! Ha Ha Ha~~



And also I'm taking up driving lessons.. I wish to complete it in, like, 3 months.. If possible.. Ha Ha.. Tomorrow will be the day~



Today was the special event, Final Destination 2.. The event was a successful one, where quite a handful of new comers coming to know Christ as their Lord and Saviour~ Praise God~



And also I saw the crazy side of me after so long.. It was how long ago since I've gone crazy? Hmmm.. 3 to 4 months? It's like I'm shouting for attention here and there.. That Chester.. Showing a bit Flavour to the other 2 sides.. Haiz..



I didn't try the food.. Ha ha..



Then on the 13rd of March.. Monday.. Pasir Ris G12, which is my new G12, had a BBQ, at Hazeline's place.. It was my first BBQ party with them.. It was fun and I got to know them better.. We got a lots and lots of food.. Until a point of time where we have to play " The Number Game" to CLEAR all the food.. Whoa..



This week is, can say, a much slacker week for me.. I'm on course, of course.. As a trainee.. But the problem is that the people who are suppose to go for the course are not there.. And I, who has already went through the course once, went through it again.. Haiz.. So boring.. But GOOD thing is that I don't have to face that IDIOT for the WHOLE ONE WEEK~~!! HAHA~~!

Everybody gathering around for "The Number Game"

The Kids(Not all)

My Assistant G12 Leader, Jan

My Forever Crappy G12 Leader, Tao Liang, who asked for the number game

Finally~ This is LAST DUTY FOR THE SAF~~!! Ha Ha~ No More duty liao~

And for your informtion, 2 MORE MONTHS starting from 08 April.. That I will be out of NATIONAL SERVICE.. I have been waiting for this day for a very long time.. ORD LOR~~!!

It's getting nearer and nearer.. Freedom can be seen.. But the future is uncertain..

Nowhere to study after getting out of NS..

To WORK or to STUDY??

To study at SHATEC or WAIT till next year to apply for UNI??

Haiz..

Put that aside..

Last night..

Don't know what happened to me..

Just feeling funny..

Feeling bored.. At the same time, feeling that something is wrong with me..

Feels like missing something.. A person or something.. I don't know..

Just wanted to say something.. But it's like the words are stuck in my mouth..

Perhaps it's loneliness that is making up all these..

The monster that I have been fighting in my entire life..

I know that SPIRITUALLY, GOD is there..

But PHYISCALLY, I felt that I don't have much FRIENDS..

Haiz..

Perhaps thinking too much..

Hmmm.. I think I'm addicted to BLOGGING liao.. Ha Ha..

Hope it is not a bad thing to be addictd to blogging..

Ha Ha..

Continue to pray for me.. Studies.. Health.. Everything.. Thank you all very much..



Haiz.. About the last blog that Me have published ysterday..

Me have second thoughts about going into Shatec now..
Not that Me wants to back out..
But the reasons : My parents..
They have "preached" to me ever since Me said that Me going to apply for a place in Shatec..
Even before Me have printed and fill in the application form..

Saying "Why don't you take up a degree first? Then after you completed it.. Then you can go study at Shatec.. At least you got something to back on.."
Why do they always want me to go into UNI..
Because of FACE sake?
Because they are SCARED?
Because for my own GOOD?

Me don't know.. Me really don't know..
Thought Me can finally follow my dream..
To be a chef..
To be a Lao Ban, opening a resturant of my own..
But now..
Me really don't know..

Hmmmm..
Perhaps Me have to leave it all to GOD..
Only God can help me..

Don't think so much liao..
Thinking so much makes me pain..
Gastric.. It sucks..
Always have this problem whenever I feel sad..

Well..
All Me can do is to PRAY and PRAY..
Hope you can help me PRAY too..
Thank you..



Today.. Me went to Shatec, the place you become chef.. Well.. Just now went down personally to Shatec to hand up my application form..

So when Me reached there, Me was shocked that Shatec is actually a very small place.. Smaller than what Me imagined to be.. Okay.. Then when Me handed up my application form, the person in charge of my form asked me to wait for a while for interview.. Me was like, " Wah.. So faster interview liao ah.. Hai ya.. Never mind.. Faster, the better.." Then the interviewer came.. Me thought it would be a guy.. But to my surprise, IT WAS A LADY CHEF~! Whoa~! Then the interview went on.. Everything goes well..

Then she said that "Since you have went through National Service, I believe that you have the responsible to do the course and that we like to have these kind of guys coming.. Because the guys coming in is mostly 18 and they have not go through National Service.. So they expect us to take them in.. But most of they we rejected them.." When Me heard that, Me was like"Wah.. Serious ah.. Hmmm..." Then the last sentence that she said was"You will most likely to go through.." Haha~! Thank and Praise God~! Hmmm.. But everything haven't comfirm yet.. So still need to pray..

Haha~! Next time Me will be cooking this kind of food..

Before Me wrote this blog, Me was sleeping for an hour before my parents woke me up for dinnr.. Haiz.. Why Me so tired, you may ask? Haha..

Me just had an overnight training, or should Me say, torturing training.. And just reached back to camp this morning.. Acutally the training is until 3 plus.. But THANK AND PRAISE GOD~! The training was cut and it ended at around 12pm~! HAHA~!

Didn't get much sleep, or you can say, that 2 and a half hours is not considered sleeping at all.. Haha. .That's how much we slept last night at teh training ground.. Sounds like we were still trainees.. I suppose we were for last night.. But there was fun in between.. Espcially when there is no high ranking officers around with us.. We chatted and laughed.. like nobody's business.. Well.. We had fun.. We are like the tv series.. Band Of Brothers.. Haha.. Except the World War I part.. Didn't have any experience for that..

Hmmm.. And after we have reached back in camp, EVERYBODY is like brought back to life.. Before that was like all half-died.. We did everything, from washing the vehicles to cleaning the stores in LIGHTNING SPEED~ Haha.. Then once reached back to our bunk, that place becomes a heaven.. Bath, and then SLEEP~!!! But too bad.. Didn't get lots of it before going down to office to GET MY OFF PASS~! Finally, Me can take OFF again~ WHOAAA~ Can sleep until late again~

Tomorrow going to Shatec personally to get my enrolment going.., after TP had rejected me.. Pray for me, that Me can get in..

Think Me won't be sleeping till late.. Haha~ Below is the song that I like. ENJOY~

Come What May

By Ewan McGregor, Nicole Kidman

Never knew I could feel like this

Like I’ve never seen the sky before

Want to furnish inside your kiss

Everyday I love you more and more

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing

Telling me to give you everything

Seasons may change, winter to spring

But I love you, until the end of time

Come what may Come what may

I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace

Suddenly my life doesn’t seem such a waste

It all revolves around you

And there’s no mountain too high, no river too wide

Sing out this song and I’ll be there by your side

Storm clouds may gather and stars may go by

But I love you ( I love you), until the end (until the end) of time

Come what may Come what may

I will love you until my dying day

Oh come what may Come what may I will love you (I will love you)

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may Come what may I will love you until my dying day

So sad.. So sad.. So sad..

No more TP for me.. No more school liao..
Why? Why? Why?
Me so wanted to go for that course.. Diploma in Baking and Culinary Science..
To be a chef.. Somewhere near to my home.. Can go G12 easier.. Can go home earlier..
But they don't want me.. They rejected me.. So sad.. So sad.. Why?

Just felt that suddenly, I have no confidence in myself anymore.. When Me tell people Me going back to poly to study another dip, they said "You sure go in one.." That time Me not very sure whether I can go in.. "TP's cut off point is like a mountain.. Very high one.. " But Me have faith in God that He will put me into that course.. So everytime Me checked the website to know the result.. And everytime, the result is not out..

Then today.. 19/03/2007.. The day Me checked my appliance result.. It came out.. The result.. It is unsuccessful.. Me was like "Haiz.. Sian.. Cannot get in.."

Well.. Me still have the faith that God will put me into that course.. Perhaps into another school but the same course.. But provided that it is His will for me.. Hmmm.. If not, then go to UNI to study lor.. Me will jia you one~ Me will never fall because only a small, small obstacle~ Me will always trust God for Him to give me the best that He can give~ Because He knows my life plan~
Everything is under His control~ AMEN~!



Sorry for the late writing.. Have been busy to the past 2 weeks.. working on the VEHICLES that Me not supposed to work on.. Haiz..

Now ever worse.. Me going to miss Good Friday this year.. ARGH~~~ Why? BECAUSE of the STUPID IDIOTS~~ Have to WORK on that day.. The sacred Day.. Haiz.. WHY WHY WHY?

Why must he torture US? My upper study don't have this kind of stuff during their period that They are going to ORDing.. But WHY ME? WHY THIS BATCH?

For the past 2 weeks, Me think that Me going to go crazy.. Feeling very weak phyiscally and mentally.. Very tired these 2 weeks.. WHY? Probably of all the stresses that is IN THE OFFICE~~~~!!! Me don't even want to stay in the office.. Because you will never know when you will be "shot"..

Then every event also take.. Anniversary, D&D, all kinds of crap also take.. Thinking that we are like the SPARTANS in the moive 300.. Thinking that the small group of us can do A LOT OF THINGS~~!!! BUT HE'S WRONG~~~~!!!! WE ARE NOT LIKE THE SPARTANS~~!!!! WE ARE NOT PHYISCALLY FIT AND MENTALLY STRONG~~!! SPARTANS NEVER SURRENDER! SPARTANS NEVER RETREAT! BUT WE DO~~!!! WE ARE NOT TRAINED TO DO ALL THESE CRAP~~!!

Just pushing down everything that they can push down.. And demanding a lot of us.. AND I MEAN A LOT~~!! STUPID~~!!! THEY ARE KILLING US~~!!

ARGH~~ Still having headaches.. On and off.. Somemore, sick for the whole week this week.. Flu, Cough, Sore Throat.. AND STILL DOING WORK~~!! YOU THINK THAT ME IS SUPERMAN~~??

Me thinking that my old injury is acting up again.. THE LEFT KNEE INJURY.. Don't think my knee can make it liao.. Going to break anytime.. Left foot also.. Think the bone there is cracked.. Whenever Me sqat, Me will feel the pain both at the knee and the foot.. Sharp pain somemore.. Haiz.. Die liao..


3 more months to ORD~~!! 2 months to ORD including clearing leave and off days~~~!!!



Sorry for the long update.. Super no time last week.. You may ask why.. Here's the story..


Work are piling up for last week and this week.. Because SOMEONE in the office is KEEP PUSHING work for all of us to do.. And for last week, ME ONLY~!! WHY~~~??? And that person is the BOSS~~!!!!!

WHY? WHY? WHY?

And even for the outing that we are going to have on Friday.. HE ALSO WANTS TO TO STAY IN THE CAMP AND GO FOR THE RUN IN THE MORNING BEFORE WE GO FOR THE OUTING, EVEN THOUGH HE HIMSELF IS NOT GOING~~!! WHY??

WHY? WHY? WHY?

All of thiese is so so unfair.. Looking at other people, other specialists in the camp.. They are having a good time, playing sports, clearing their super many off days.. But US? ME? NO WAY~~!! "Patrick.. I need you to help the technicans to repair the vehicles. So you cannot clear your off.." HE said.. The STUPID BOSS SAID THAT~~!!! FOR WHAT? WHY DO YOU NEED ME TO HELP? I'm not trained to do all these stuff.. I was like standing beside the technicans and helping them by providing "eye-power" for them.. WHAT FOR?

ARGHHHHH~~~~~!!!!! HE SUCKS!!! ALL THE CAPTAINS HERE SUCKS~~~!!!!!!!!

Seriously.. I have learnt a lot from other people in the camp, like practical stuffs.. BUT
FROM THE CAPTAINS, NOTHING~~!!! NOTHING AT ALL~~!! OR SHOULD I SAY YA.. I do learn something.. HOW TO GIVE INCENTIVES TO OTHER PEOPLE WHO HELPS YOU DO THINGS and HOW TO TREAT PEOPLE WITH RESPECT~~!!! RESPECT~~!!! That's the word that is needed here~!

ARGHH~~!! HEADACHE!!!

Having headache ever since last week.. While I'm doing ALL THE REPAIRS!! Haiz.. Even ran in the rain for don't know how many times.. ARGH~!!! SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THESE~~!!!