Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.


Patrick Ethan Goh
wishing to be a teacher
loves to cooking
hates bacstabbers
hates being taken for granted
loves God
loves you
loves chocolates






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Dear diary..

i have to say this.. i received chocolates for someone today.. so sweet of her.. along with my lunch.. really sweet of her.. i really needed that chocolate today.. haha.. thank you :)



Dear Diary..

today has been the most tiring day for me.. playing basketball since 11.30 in the afternoon, until i think around 5 plus.. with breaks in between.. and also because of that, i had a releapse just now.. as it, difficulty breathing, unable to control my movement.. whenever i feel very tired, i think i will have this happened.. but after a meal, i will be okay.. haiz..

and also.. today was the hottest day.. i think it's around 35degree.. freaking hot.. and my brain.. hmmm... or whatever is in my head, got fried up by the heat.. super hot.. cannot take it.. i think i have become darker for today.. got super dehyrated.. thank God i have my bottle with me.. haha..

today's basketball is a bit bad.. probably because of the heat.. no one is performing.. but really.. it's okay for today.. we have fun playing with the oldies.. haha.. we were like joking in the court.. making a lot of crappy statements in the court.. haha.. although region A got 3rd, we have a lot of fun.. really enjoyed ourselves..



Dear Diary..

i couldn't sleep.. so i have to write.. probably because there is things in my mind that is confusing.. i shall try talking it out..

what is friendship? what does it take to have good friends.. to maintain good friendship? what are the feelings when you have good best friends? someone told me is the time and commitment that makes all that.. someone told me also that it's like a karma.. a curse.. all i know..
i don't have any best friends in my whole life.. so sometimes when you talk to me about your best friends stuff, i cannot really understand and relate into your problem... your feelings for them.. probably it's a curse for me not to have good friends.. best friends.. i don't know.. friendships isn't a one way thing.. although how i want to have that friendship to work out, it's also depend on the other side that makes everything go.. it cannot be only my side that is doing all the work to make it work.. not that i don't want.. i would love to have.. seeing all of you having so much fun with all your good friends, best friends.. sometimes it just make me jealous.. i would love to have that fun too..






do you feel that guys around you are much caring than me?
do you feel that guys around you are much better listener than me?
do you feel that guys around you are much better talker than me?
do you feel that guys around you are much more sennsitive than me in thinking?










how i want to cry until there's no more tears for me to cry..
how i want to run until no more energy left in me and just drop..



how i wish i can cry..
cry until no more tears..
how i wish i can scream..
like nobody's business..
how i wish i can be like normal..
just like what others are..
how i wish i can make friends...
having a very good strong friendship..
how i wish i can run..
run for eternal..

i can only wish..
i can only hope..
and may not come true..
because..
i'm just not normal..
not like that same as others..

people may say that i'm just like the same as others..









but i'm not..
no friends..
no best friends..



Dear Diary..

just came back from Ikea Tampines.. i went there with my mum only.. going there to get a frying pan.. and some candles for herself.. acutally a bit bored.. because it's like nothing to say.. but still okay lah.. although it's only a short trip.. happy i guess..







Dear Diary..

Sorry about the long "missing in action".. Didn't really have anything to write.. Shall write about the whole week then..

This whole week has been a good practicing week for me.. as in cooking.. because i have been cooking for ______ lunch.. trying different dishes.. i really hope that she has liked all of them.. because i'm cooking without my taste buds.. so no taste.. but she said that all of them are nice.. and i believe her.. but i just cannot believe myself that i can cook without my taste buds.. just cannot believe myself..

i feel that i'm going through the motion of eating.. as in i'm just filling my stomach.. without tasting anything.. to me now, every food is just tasteless.. maybe it's because of my flu.. maybe because of other things.. i don't know..

today, i realised that whenever i play basketball, feelings and expressions on people around me affects me a lot.. i just realised that today.. whenever someone who i loves and cares a lot is feeling happy, chances of me playing well is high.. and whenever someone is feeling sad or down, i will just be affected and cannot perform.. that's weird for a sportman.. because i know that as a sportsman, i cannot play by feelings and moods.. but that's something i cannot change.. it's just in me.. probably i can don't care.. but i'm just too sensitive about all the feeling things.. it's just me..



Dear Diary..

Today's message is from Pastor Dale.. about remember to remember.. remember to remember God.. when God have gave you wealth, happiness, everything.. remember to remember to praise and thank God whenever.. or should i say.. about anything.. good things.. bad things.. just praise and thank God for everything..

today i also put what i have learnt in Shatec to use.. that is to cook a meal for my parents and to use whatever that is left to cook.. the chicken was nice.. and the rice.. this is the first time i cooked this rice receipe without an oven.. and only a stove.. the rice was nice.. taste nice.. texture of the rice was soft.. having a nice aroma.. just like the normal rice that we cook using a rice cooker.. so i can say.. it was a success.. oh.. by the way.. acutally.. i just wanted to try cooking the rice only.. not a main starch item for the dinner so ya.. Thank God for everything..
















The answer is obvious..





Because He is the SUN..



Dear diary..

today.. i just feel that i'm a kid.. not in the sense that my behaviour is like one.. but my thinking is like a freaking one.. don't even know why and what's wrong with me.. i just feel that i'm really a big kid trapped, really trapped in a adult's body.. never seems to grow up..

today was the second last day of the one-week exam.. it's just sucks.. when the lecturer gave out the paper and when i read it, my mind just went *poof*.. blank.. empty.. nothing inside.. then i started to pray.. hope that God will do something.. then i was getting paniced because nothing was coming out.. then i was thinking: "heck lah.. i will just go to sleep and then just hand in a blank paper.." but as i was laying my head on the table, thoughts of last night's conversation with ______ came in.. "God will be beside you tomorrow when you're doing the paper.." then i started to flip the paper again.. and answers just come in.. at least it's not blank paper.. then when i came out of the room, walking past the staff room, having the 6th sense that tells me that my tutor is coming out.. and true enough.. it's him, the nicest and most concern lecturer that i ever known..

lecturer:"So, Patrick, how's the paper? Difficult?"
Me:"Huh? Okay lah.. A bit difficult.. But easy lah.."
lecturer:"Huh? Hey Patrick.. Are you okay?"
Me:"Huh? Errr.. Okay lah.."
lecture:"You look in a daze.. You sick?"
Me:"Huh? Err.. Think so lah.."
lecturer:"Then you go home and rest.."

I was indeed in a daze when talking to my lecturer.. really don't know what to say to him.. feel that i have disappointed him in someway.. somehow, that's how i feel.. just now..

tomorrow will be the last paper.. and i can say.. the toughest.. because even more things to remember.. i don't know whether i can make it through tomorrow..

shall go and rest before i start to study again.. it's 12.40 in the afternoon..



Dear Diary..

this week is the exam week.. actually to say, i didn't really feel the tense in the class.. as in there isn't any stress in the class about studying.. not like during my secondary school or poly school times, where everywhere you go to within the school compound, you will see people studying for their papers.. then it will make you want to stud very hard.. but now in Shatec, there isn't any of this kind of stress.. everyone in the class would just come in the class and then take the paper and then go home.. just like a normal lesson.. and people still can be late for the paper.. haha.. not stress at all.. but without this kind of stress, people won't perform up to their expectation.. as there isn't any competition.. no one to fight with.. as in fight for good result.. not physically fight.. so ya.. sometimes, stress can be a good thing..

yesterday was the English paper.. and i can say that the paper was okay.. not very difficult.. so ya.. today will be having Catering Science, which is vitamins, proteins, carbohydrates, and bacteria and stuff like that..

i can officially say that the meatball from Ikea was very nice! especially the sauce for the meatball.. it's the one that brings out the flavour of the meatballs.. i went to Ikea Tampines to buy them.. i bought 2 boxes of 15 meatballs each.. one for you.. and one for my family.. then after that i realised that my family cannot eat them.. because it's made of beef!! haiz.. then no choice.. i have to eat the delicious meatballs by myself.. haha.. too bad.. then i found out another donut outlet at PS.. Missy Donuts.. they have very cute shapes of donuts.. smiley face.. heart-shaped.. and have different flavours.. the donuts are very soft and nice.. they said that their recipe came from Japan.. hmmm.. "Japanese are a bunch of clever people".. hmmmm.. hear that sentence from somewhere.. hmmmm.. anyway.. as long as the donuts are nice and tasty, people will go and but de.. don't care about the recipe comes from where.. people will just flock to the shop and buy.. lots of them..



Dear diary..

just feel that it wasn't really sincere at all to give other people eat that kind of food.. just feel bad.. i'm sorry...



Dear Diary..

a thought has stuck me suddenly.. it seems like i have been giving other people food that i have practiced during my practical.. and it also seems like i haven't been cook for other people.. as in cooking for them in mind instead of cooking for practice.. that's what i have thought.. and that sometimes, thinking about people you love while you're cooking during practical doesn't mean that you're cooking for that person.. it's still a practice food.. it's still what you have practiced.. not the kind of food that you have intended to cook for the person.. not the kind of food that is somehow we called it 'leftovers'.. this have to be stopped.. i cannot be this kind of person.. i just don't want to cook for practice and then give people.. but i want to cook with my heart.. with my feelings..

Before

After

Family, Faith, Food and Fun night was not bad.. just that from an usher point of view, this is too long.. because i can see that the crowd is getting very restless as the programme goes on.. don't really think that the service should be so long.. but the dramas are very good.. very well done..









today went to Tiong Bahru Market to eat.. hmmmm.. glad to go there to eat.. felt very relaxed after studying.. never think that anyone can always study without any break.. haha.. had quite a spread of food.. Bak Ku Teh.. Duck porridge.. haha.. very nice~

Food From Tiong Bahru~ Nice!

Bak Ku Teh.. Smell Nice! Taste Even Better~

Char Kway Teow~ Nice!

Duck Porridge~

Dear diary,

Before

After

this is a before and after of a lamb rack.. we eat lamb rack, lamb chop, and lamb cutlet in restaurant. but the process to make the ribs show is not easy.. it took me about 30 minutes to get to the condition of after..you need to remove all the meat on the ribs CLEAN.. not a bit of meat on the ribs.. so ya.. hope all of you would really enjoy the ribs everytime you all order the dish.. because it includes the chef's skill..

peace~

God Bless~

it's over..
i wonder when will the fairy tale continue..



Dear Dairy..









Saturday(01/09/2007)
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!
to all teachers..
thank you for passing down your knowledge and skill to us, student..



today was the final of the ocean leagues..
the basketball team have fought hard..
but we lost..
but we have fought a good fight..
it's okay..
try again next year..
haha..






after the game..
getting very random..
went down to airport to buy Popeye's Fried Chicken..
haha..



and my mummy also..
asked me to eat prawns..
and she said..
"don't care.. just eat.."
haha..
well..
i just eat lor..








i will keep on encouraging you..
giving you all the encouragement and love that you need..
to change..
i will help you through this..
and help me please..














i hope i didn't neglect you..
try to give you all the free time..
to spend with you..