Thursday, August 13, 2009
hey readers:)
i have OFFICIAL change my blog to www.marineseacreature.wordpress.com.. so do visit the new blog :)
happy reading :)
(19:40)
Thursday, August 06, 2009
why?
why?
WHY?
why must i be the grown up?
why must i be the one providing everything?
can't i be the one who leans on someone?
can't i be the one that ask for things?
why must i be the one giving things all the time?
i'm really tired of all this..
tired of giving..
i know that God will bless those who gives wholeheartedly..
giving has always make me happy..
but...
when giving has become a habit for others to take..
when giving becomes your responsibility..
it just takes a toil..
giving becomes unwilling..
giving becomes a different thing..
the reason that i work now..
is not to save up or make myself feel better...
but instead..
i have became the provider..
for 6 persons...
and now, i don't get to enjoy..
the result of my sweat, blood and energy..
instead..
all has been taken away...
it's just so tiring..
i just feel like leaving..
just leaving everything..
after running..
calves hurts..
throat burning..
i feel so human..
today..
sliced my finger..
blood dripping non stop..
feel so so human...
please..
i ask of you..
please stay close..
don't go..
i need you..
(20:52)
Monday, August 03, 2009
i just simply love going for community prayer on tuesdays..
i just feel the presence of God there while i'm praying..
God talks and perform wonders..
last Sunday's message..
"Changes"
speaks to me..
there are so many changes in our lifes..
in our family..
in our workplace..
in our relationship with friends..
but if we just stay at one place..
when the changes come..
we will be not be pleasing God..
we need to move on..
despite of all the changes..
changes happen so as to make us grow..
grow physically,
mentalitly,
and spiritually too..
there may be a period of mourning..
a period of sadness..
but after a short while,
we have to move on..
and get along with life..
may God help us..
my lappy is finally VIRUS-FREE!!! =)
(22:04)