Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.


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today have been a down day for me..

first and foremost..
work..
for NO reason..
i was been scolded by manager..
and you know what?
IT'S TOTALLY NOT MY FAULT..
i didn't repeat the order..
and i didn't write wrongly..
the customer requested to have another plate of what she is eating..
and she told him..
and then he just stormed to me and ask..
"Patrick! Did you repeat the order to the customer?"
and then just walked off..
then after that..
everything was clear..
and guess what?
not a single sorry was said..
actually i didn't expect him to say that..
and i know he will NOT say that..
given the black face the whole time..
i think whoever is happy on that day working..
seeing him like that..
also will have no mood to work..
he's just sickening..
i seriously think that i cannot work there anymore..
having to see his black face..
ever my mood is being affected..
haiz..

and guess what..
today is my fourth day eating ice cream in a row..
i think i will break my own record this week..
having to eat ice cream for the whole week..
Monday to Sunday..
and i think that the ice cream is found nowhere in my body..
what a waste..
haiz..
thought i can grow fat that way..
haiz..
after i say this..
i think i will be killed by a lot of people..
especially ladies..
hmmmm..

tomorrow will be the orientation day for my new course..
i don't feel excited somehow..
nor i feel sian..
ya..
but i will definitely feel tired..
given the fact that i have to wake up early..
and cannot stay in the "piggy kingdom" until too late..
haiz..

and this few days..
i have been sleeping until the late morning..
probably i love the "piggy kingdom" a lot..
haiz..

words sometimes just cannot come out when you need them..
feelings sometimes like to mix up when you need them to be separated..
attitudes sometimes always bad when you need them to be good..
and i thank you for being there for me..
you will be there when i need someone to talk to..
especially when i'm not talking..
especially when words cannot come out..
especailly when feelings need to be sorted out..
especially when attitudes are not right..
sometimes i don't want those not nice words to come out..
but they just do..
guess you're disappointed..
i just want to say..
i'm sorry..
i just cannot get my feelings sorted out at that moment of time..
i'm sorry..
that words don't come out..
i'm sorry.
that attitude is not right..



hmmm..
making small notes about myself..

i think i have been giving up stuff in myself..
and the recent one is basketball..
yes..
i remember that i gave it up once before..
but picked it up again..
this time..
i'm giving it up again..
don't know whether i'm picking it up again..
just don't feel like playing it..
i felt that it's a sport that i have a lot of hurts, pains, disappointment and discouragement..
solo play..
selfish play..
man for their own..
just don't want to have anything to do with it..
that's maybe why i didn't play it for a long while..
like 2 months?
ya..
i don't know whether am i picking it up again a not..
but for now..
no..
..........................

giving up stuff is hard..
but some things you just have to give up..
things that are bad..
things that destroys you..
some things is better that you give up..
but some things you gave up..
won't have the same feeling when you pick it up again..



hmm..

i think i have an overdose of ice cream this week..
because last monday and Tuesday..
i have had ice cream after work..
a normal thing for me..
as the ice cream is free..
from a expensive resturant..
Gelato..
so ya..
and on Wednesday..
we had ice cream..
banana split..
ice cream from Gelare..
so ya..
and later in the evening..
and on Sunday..
i will be working..
so more ice cream for me..
so that left me with Friday and Saturday..
which i think i will eat ice cream also..
haha..
so that's bad..
it means that i will grow fat from all the ice cream..
Gelato..
haha..
have to buck up on my exercise already..
hmmm...

i have added a music playlist..
a list of songs that i like from the past years..
so enjoy..

things have been bad..
words that are not nice are out..
just don't take them to heart..
i will be there..
no matter what..



just find this song nice..

The Rose
By Westlife

Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love it is a hunger
An endless, aching need
I say love it is a flower,
And you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love,
In the spring, becomes the rose.



hmmm.. just reached home..
and from work.. that is..

today at the workplace..
not bad..
better than yesterday..
but still bad..
at least we don't have a scolding mouth around..
so it's better..

mistakes are still happening..
the customers making funny requests..
and in the end.. rejecting their order..
and you know why?
because they said that they didn't requested for the changes..
or because we didn't do the requests that they claimed to say..
but we clearly didn't hear the requests..
so in the end..
it's our fault..
Thank God..
HE is not there..
otherwise we will have a big fat scolding from him..

and today..
one of the managers actually said that i did well today..
but to think back..
what i do today is what i usually do everytime..
so i find nothing special i did today..
but he just said that..
then i was like "okay.. thanks.."
i seriously didn't see that coming..
i'm just doing what i'm supposed to do..
which is my responsibility to serve the customers..
and to take orders..
and to check the orders..
and to bring the dishes out to the customers..
and making sure that the customers are happy..
ya..
so i find funny that he said that..
hmmmm..

whoa~
for the past 2 days..
i have been sleeping at around 2 am..
and then waking up at around 10 plus 11..
hmmm..
my body clock is all messed up..
plus school's starting..
so have to get it right back online..
with correct time and fast..
and to those who message or call me..
i will still be reply to you or answer your call..
but 2 things i will not entertain..
my brother's alarm clock..
which rings at 5.30 in the morning..
and my parents' call for breakfast or whatever they say..

my dog is seems to be the one that i talked to the most..
and she looks like waiting for me to come home before she sleeps..
so sweet of her..
haha..

i think i'm going to fall asleep already..
think i better end here..
good night to those who are still not asleep..
and good morning to those who slept and wake up already..

i know life have been difficult..
words have left scars..
but just don't take them to heart..
it's hurting..
and unbearable..
don't think about the words..
the people that said them..
sadness has set in..
but don't let it settle down in heart..
the world can just bring you down..
look down on you..
but most importantly..
you yourself cannot look down on yourself..



hmmm.. kinda of bored..

i realised something..
i have not been going for driving lessons for the past few weeks..
after i talked to my brother about how to drift a car last Sunday..
and after the movie "Initial D" acted by Jay Zhou..
hmmm..
no money will be my reason why i have not been going for lessons..
it's like the price of one lesson is about 3 days of my job..
and the amazing thing is that i haven't got my pay..
so that's why i stop going for driving lessons for a while..
and i think i should carry on with the driving..
otherwise i will like forget everything that i learnt..
the left and right turns..
the clutch handling..
ya..
so have to buck up..

haiz..
i think i'm going crazy already..
i'm so bored to a extend that i talked to my dog..
just tell the dog everything that's in my mind..
at least the dog won't be going around..
talking about it..
thank you DOG..
you're indeed man's best friend..

xin ku..
that's how i feel..
i'm sorry to feel that way..
say that..

last night..
i stumbled across this song..
very simple lyrics..
but meaningful..
hope you all will like it..

My Love Will Get You Home

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
如果你流浪 走得太遠 我的愛能把你帶回家
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
如果你跟了一顆錯的星星而行 我的愛能把你帶回家
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
如果你發現自己迷失了 正感到孤單
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
請你回過神來想想我 因為我的愛會把你帶回家
Boy, my love will get you home.
男孩 我的愛能把你帶回家

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
如果明亮的光線使你雙眼再也看不見 我的愛能把你帶回家
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
如果你的煩惱阻礙你邁大步走 我的愛能把你帶回家
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
如果你發現自己迷失了 正感到孤單
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
請你回過神來想想我 因為我的愛會把你帶回家
Boy, my love will get you home.
男孩 我的愛能把你帶回家

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
如果你覺得羞愧 我的愛會把你帶回家
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
如果只有你應被責怪 我的愛會把你帶回家
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
如果你發現自己迷失了 正感到孤單
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
請你回過神來想想我 因為我的愛會把你帶回家
Boy, my love will get you home.
男孩 我的愛能把你帶回家



it's not good to work at the current workplace that i'm working..

today..
working there..
it's totally like working for a bunch of black faced people..
black faces = no mood to work
that resturant..
you have to see other people's faces..
when they are happy, it's still not too bad..
but..
when they are having bad sales..
they tend to have black faces..
and thus getting the staff to be "operated" on..
getting scolding or getting suan..
so no good reasons..
and the working attitude there is also bad..
it's like the chef is the one who is calling the shots..
saying what can or cannot be done..
not saying that everything can be done for the customers..
and the Italian manager..
only bring in overseas customers..
saying only they will eat MORE..
eating more = richer
as for local or Chinese customers..
he just don't care about them..
and he does the least things..
most of the time i saw him eating or chatting..
but at least..
i learnt new things from them..
like how to open and pour from a wine bottle..
and how to pour beer from a jug..
with different customers asking for different amount of foam..
and how to serve the customers..
and how to work under stress..
haiz..
i think i'm going to get another job..
which is near to my home..
so that the transport fee will not be so heavy for me..
hope that the next job will be a better one..
not like the current one..

hmmm..
school's going to start in 3 weeks' time..
i'm kinda of nervous..
as in it's going to a new place for me to explore..
to make friends.. if possible..
to learn totally new stuff..
and at the same time..
feeling kinda of out of place to study..
because i have not been studying for the past 2 plus years..
so it's like i'm kinda of lost the feeling of how to study..
the exciting feeling to study..
and the coming friday..
it will be the orientation for me..
so for those who read this entry..
please pray for me..
to be able to adapt back to the study life..
to study hard..
thanks..

feeling jealous is a natural thing..
a normal stuff for for all human..
so it's okay..
it's okay to feel that way..
we will get out of all these things..
problems that we are facing now..

it's going to be tough..
but we will get through it..



i feel bad..
i feel sad..
the way that we walked past each other today..
that's scary..
i feel lousy..
i feel sucky..
i feel xin ku..
i feel tired..
guess you felt that too..
but we have to get used to it..
it's not going to be easy..
because you mean so much to me..
please don't feel bad..
because i will feel that too..
please don't feel sad..
because i will feel that too..
i don't like this feelings..



today was a happy day for me..
until i reached home..
think i will blog about the happy stuff first..

today..
went to Plaza Singapura to watch movie..
Nancy Drew..
it was nice..
having to know that being a detective is so fun..
solving cases that people think it's impossible..
never think that..
maybe i should try one day..
think i will be having fun..

then after that went to the new shopping centre at Clark Quay..
it's called the Central..
though it's empty..
but well..
it's better than doing nothing..
better than stoning..
then went to Vivocity to eat..
looked around for a nice place to eat..
but in the end..
went back to the same resturant..
ordered Clayfish & Seafood Pasta..
and ICE CREAM FONDE..
ya..
enjoying ourselves..
prawns..
i ate 2..
and the clayfish..
Thank God..
no reaction of the rashes..
and then Sentosa..
to watch Song of The Sea..
the special effects are very nice..
making full of water, lights and laser..
they made the whole show so interesting..
never know that they can do it that way..
new stuff for me..
then take a walk around the island..
looking at the night lights at Sentosa..
taking a break from the busy life at the mainland..
i feel so peaceful to be there..
just enjoying every moment of it..
the breeze..
the lights..
everything..
it's been long time since i felt that..
really..
how i wish i stay there..
away from the busy life..

oh ya..
on monday..
i watched Fantastic 4..
with a group of girls..
a very funny, crappy bunch..
ya..
don't get wrong..
they are just a group of friends..
except you..
the movie is very nice..
actually i know the movie a bit..
it's all about the Silver Surfer..
how he is being used by some bad "guy"..
to find the planets with life forms..
and to destroy them..
but in the end..
Silver Surfer is the hero..
saving everybody..
and including the Fantastic 4..
YOU GO SILVER SURFER~
hmm..
then went to have BBQ at Marine South..
ate a prawn..
which i seriously should not eat..
but i just eat..
at the request..
or should i say..
try..
of you..
not your fault..
i just want to try..
after not eating prawns for so long..
the prawns just tasted so so so good..
hmmm.. ya..

then after that..
stayed overnight at a place where..
seriously think..
i never and will not think i will be..
and ya..
of course not alone..
ya..
really never think it is possible..
ya..

and now to the sad and angry part..
the unhappy part..

WHY YOU ALL HAVE TO SHOUT AGAIN?!
I THOUGHT ALL ARE OKAY LIAO..
BUT AGAIN..
BECAUSE OF LAPTOP..
BECAUSE OF WIRELESS CONNECTION..
BECAUSE OF A STUPID GAME..
WHICH I THINK IT'S NOT MY FAULT..
THE WHOLE HOUSE IS NOISY..
IF YOU THINK THAT GETTING RID OF THE MODEM IS GOING TO HELP..
THINK YOU SHOULD ASK ME TO GET OUT..
SERIOUSLY THINK THAT I DON'T BELONG HERE..
NOT IN THE HOUSE..
GETTING REALLY TIRED OF YOUR FREAKING TEMPER..
THANK GOD I HAVE LEARNT TO CHANGE..
NOT TO BE LIKE YOU..
JUST BECAUSE OF LITTLE THIINGS..
TEMPER FLARE UP..
VURGATITIES STARTS TO COME OUT..
JUST REALLY THINK THAT I SHOULDN'T BE HERE..
IN THE HOUSE..
AND YOU IDOIT..
THIS IS MY LAPTOP!
I HAVE THE OWNSHIP OF IT..
AND I WANT TO DO WHATEVER I WANT TO IT..
YOU DON'T NEED TO COMPLAINT EVERYTHING TO THEM!
NONE OF YOUR FREAKING BUSINESS!!!!!

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i'm missing you already as i'm typing all these..
i enjoyed myself..
being myself..
of being high and stuff..
hope you don't mind..
hope that you enjoyed yourself..
as what you said last night..
being yourself is difficult..
but in front of me..
you don't need to..
i don't mind you being yourself..
though after school reopens..
you will be very busy with your work and stuff..
but to let you know...
i will always be there..
listening to you..
being your sand bag..
it's not going to be easy..
but we can get through it!
JIA YOU~





i seriously don't mean it..
i know that i shouldn't just walked away..
i know i should be there supporting..
but i didn't..
that makes you sad..
disappointed...
please forgive me..
you said it's okay..
but to me..
i know it's not okay..
i just want to say..
i'm sorry..
i'm really sorry..



these few days..
whenever i see kids in trains, bus..
i will just have a smile on my face..
i don't know..
it's like they have no worries..
carefree..
under their parents' protection..
that they can have fun as much as they like..
just seeing them gives me a happy feeling..
feeling of freedom..
but they do not know..
what is coming up in their life..
but to them..
the moment to them at that time..
is to enjoy themselves and having the protection..
of their parents..



today is a bad day..
bad day for me..
never being so discouraged before..
by people that i played sports with..

i know that things happened in the fields..
we win and we lose..
but each time..
we all say..
"we win as a team.."
"and we lose as a team.."
but today..
i know that the second line is not really true...
losing as a team means that although we are losing..
we still play as a team..
but just now..
that is not the team that i played before..
everybody is so individually playing the game..
not thinking that other people is also trying to help..
just thinking of winning..
and i seriously think that i'm not needed in the team..
being the ONE of the kickers in the team..
i'm not the best of the kickers..
but i'm also trying to help to score..
2 miskickes and i'm just being brushed off..
not given any more chance to kick..
maybe i should just give you all kick next week..
since you all so like to kick the ball..
and i will just stay at the back..
just looking you all play..


i understand how you feel..
about not knowing how you feel..
i don't blame you for thinking that way..
just remember what i have promised..
you should know what i'm talking about..
you don't need to be the best..
because you're the best already..
just that you don't know that..
but now you know..
and you mean the world to me too..
sometimes i really hope i can help you in some way..
just feeling useless at times..
cannot do things for you..
but no matter what..
i hope i can be there to help you..
whether i can help or not..



EARLY IN THE MORNING..
8AM!!!!!
QUARREL..
BECAUSE OF WHAT?
JUST BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID WIRELESS CONNECTION..
BECAUSE THE COMPUTER IS NOT WORKING..
BECAUSE OF THAT..
YOU ALL HAVE TO SCREAM..
MAKING THE WHOLE HOUSE NOISY..
VULGARITIES ARE FLYING HERE AND THERE..
TIRED!!!!
SLEEPING PEACEFUL..
AND YOU ALL DO IS JUST SHOUT!
CAN'T YOU ALL TALK NICELY?
DO YOU ALL HAVE TO SHOUT?
TIRED!!!!!!!
TIRED OF EVERYTHING!



YEAH WHOA~
Finally..
got the wireless online in my home..
no more walking all the way to Macs at the central..
no more going to wireless hot spots..
no more of all that..
it will be at the comfort of my home..
at least for now..

home to me now is a..
marketplace..
quarreling place..
a car accident area where 2 parties quarrelled about who crashed on who..
not a place where warm is..
not a place where peace is..
not a place where fun is..
it's just a dread sometimes to just go home and face all these..
think about it..
after a long day..
or after feeling happy..
then you reach home..
have to see and hear all these quarrels..
about peas and peanuts..
smal matters that can be solved with nice talking..
you feel kind of tired..
sick and tired to hear that..
how you wish you would just stay outside and not come home..
that's how i feel..


i just want to say..
i'm sorry..
that i make you worry..
i feel bad after that..
forget about how you will feel..
i'm sorry..
i will not think about it..
and to get myself back..
thanks for your advice..
now i can see..
you're slowly getting there..
being thoughtful..
thinking about other people's feelings..
Jia you~
thank you for being there for me..



hmmm..
this few days..
i think i have been very high..
as in going crazy those kind..
think i had too much of the craziness in me coming out..
had too much chocolate..
especially i have not had chocolate for a long time..
then suddenly chocolate craving comes back..
it just get worse..
haha..

hmmm...
G12 today was very noisy..
questions here and there..
flying around..
if it's all good questions then good..
but problem is..
all lame questions..
haha..
and towards me..
haha..
i was like why are you all asking me..
haha..
but it was fun..
just noisy..
haha..

monday's work is crap..
i was like very listless..
not myself that day..
don't even know what i'm doing at times..
taking orders also don't know how to take properly..
just like a idoit out there..
haiz..
but at least i came back to sense in the end..
so not that bad..

haha..
finally got a fan club..
Ethan Fan Club~
EFC..
haha..
cool right?
just got that like on monday..
some people created it for me..
then i was like laughing all the way..
haha..
a fan club of my own..
haha..

hey...
i heard that song..
very nice..
a lot of meanings in it..
i fully understand the song..
i know that sometimes..
you just don't know what to say..
but as the song said..
i'll be there for you..
even when you're ready to fall..
even you don't know what to say..
i'll be there for you..
just to let you know..



hmmm.. so late then blog..
a bit out of place..
haha..
cannot sleep..
yup..
that's me..

hmmm..
the week has gone passed with a lot of ups and downs..
too many to say it all..
haha..
i will just blog about Saturday..

hmmm..
today's game is nice..
being the kicker for me now..
has a new meaning..
i feel like i'm Johnny Wilkasons..
the England Rugby Kicker..
hmmm..
scored 2 goals..
missed around 2 to 3 kicks..
no bad for a beginner..
still can improve..
Jia You..
can de..

Finally feel that i did something for the team..
contributed something..
hmmm..

I'm just numb about things at home..
screaming and shouting..
cursing each other..
sick and tired of all that..
just feel like leaving home..
to go some place peace and quiet..
to think..
all these are crap..

i don't know why i feel this..
tired of feeling like that..
you should know what i mean..
i don't know..
i just feel that i should let you know how i feel..
thank you for today that you are there beside me..
listening to me crapping..
just really feel like crying..
crying for what i don't know..
just cry..
but nothing is coming out..
or i'm becoming feelingless..
maybe..
i just don't feel that good..
don't feel good about everything..
i think there is more to meets the eye..
i think the feeling is getting worse and worse..
i don't know..
i'm so confused...
don't want to be too protective..
want you to have the freedom..
i don't know..
i think we really need to sit down and have a good talk..
really..
to communicate more..
i don't know..
i feel that a lot of things..
are in the mind..
not in the mouth..
i just want..
the old you..
the old person that just say everything out..
i don't know..

how i wish all these have not happened..
life will be the same..
the same as last time..



hmmm..
guess what?
i'm playing pool.. at the same time writing this blog..
pro right?
hmmm..

kinda of bored today..
though there is chalet today..
right now..
it seems like everybody is having the same feeling now as me..
very bored..
nothing to do..
that's why we are playing pool now..
escaping from the chalet..
really..
this is one of the worst boring chalet outing that i ever had..
sian..

just now BBQ..
i was the chef..
as usual..
everybody was like..
"hey Patrick.. Since you're going to Shatec.. So you cook.."
then i was like..
"okay lor.."
then my fingers were like burnt up..
red and swell up..
haha..
but not black..

hot and smelly..
haha..

i'm glad that you're feeling good about today..
having confidence in the things you do..
i'm so happy for you..
i will be just beside..



hmmm..
kinda of bored..
so created a Know-Me test..
have fun..



sick.. sick.. sick..

cough.. cough.. cough..

sniff.. sniff.. sniff..

this is how i feel now..
sick..
horrible..
weak..
don't know what to do..

NO~

i cannot feel weak..
i have to be strong..
otherwise there will be things that i cannot do..
have to be strong..
i must get well again...





really hope that i can do something..
to help you..
i will be just around the corner..
supporting you..
encouraging you..
being there for you..
if you need me..



today had been the one of the most sucky day of my life..

this morning..
i was still feeling all right..
ready to pass the day with a good note..
suddenly..
i felt like sick..
super sick..
keep coughing and sniffing..
flu and cough i concluded..
non stop..
don't know why..
until to a point of time..
i have to sit down and cough it all out first..
then carry on with the things that i was doing..
this is just crap..
i think i'm going to die soon..
death: coughing too much..

just finished work..
and was close to being "scolded" by a customer..
all because the resturant do not have something that he wanted..
and also because i was the only waiter around his area..
talking about at the wrong place at the wrong time..
crap lor..
IT"S NOT MY FAULT THAT THE RESTURANT DON'T HAVE SOMETHING THAT YOU WANT..
thank God that i just keep it in my heart..
didn't like shout at him..
just shout it out now only..

4 plus hours of standing..
one of the longest time of standing without sitting..
i remember..
during NPD..
2 hours..
in the parade itself..
that's for the nation..

tomorrow will be the last chalet..
last chalet that i will be having with the guys in camp..
i supposed to be very excited..
but somehow..
excitement is not there..
i felt bored about it..
kinda of tired of it..
it will be the same thing again..
BBQ.. Xbox.. PS2..
same old stuff..

i felt that there is something wrong with me..
i wasn't feeling right somehow..
i don't know..
maybe it's just me..
maybe it's true..
getting sick often..

what i said yesterday is all true..
from the bottom of my heart..
i want you to know..
and only you..
yesterday..
is my weakness..
one of the worst weakness that i have..
sorry that you have to see it..



hmmm..
today have been a nice and wonderful day..
being crappy that i usually is..

Super Captian's Ball..
a game that i seriously have no idea in playing the game..
it's like a mixture of Captian's Ball and Rugby and American Football..
kicking the ball..
passing the ball..
i'm just clueless in playing the ball..
probably that's why i feel that i don't really in the team..
it's like being put into a unfamiliar place and is left to explore the place..
i was like being put to the backline of the team..
playing the defense..
and kicker..
but somehow..
the kicker don't have much to kick..
only have a lot to shout to control the back line..
like commanding people to do thier job in defending..
"people in the left"
"people in the right"
"I need someone in the middle"
these words just come out for my mouth..
i felt crap about it..
well..
at least we won the game..
just by a goal..
7-6
Thank God for that..
hope next week will play better..

yesterday's message..
Complete Obedience
message is good..
God spoke to me..
To obey his word..
words that He had spoken to me before..
time and time again..
all i have to do is to obey..
for those who read this message..
kindly pray for me..
thankz..

tomorrow will be my second day working..
hope everything will go smoothly..

glad that you're okay..
don't wish that you're not..
want you to be happy..
you appear to be strong..
but i know..
inside..
you're breaking down..
wish i can do something..
although i don't know anything..




how i wish i can help with something..
i know that things are bad..
i really hope i can do something..
but i know..
there is nothing much i can do..