Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.


Patrick Ethan Goh
wishing to be a teacher
loves to cooking
hates bacstabbers
hates being taken for granted
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"How, in my darkest moments, my most fearful times, when faced, became my bravest. When feeling at your weakest you end up showing more strength, when at your lowest are suddenly lifted above higher than you've ever been."

"They all border one another, those opposites, and ow quickly we can be altered."

"Despair can be altered by one simple smile offered by a stranger; confidence can become fear by the arrival of one uneasy presence."



finally have the time to update this so-called dead blog.. haha!!



Deadlines

All of us has deadlines to meet. Different people has different deadlines to meet.. For students, deadlines for projects, homework, deadline to hand in their corncent forms for their favourite school outing.. For adults, work projects, deadline for rushing to meet people, and even eating lunch.. Just take for example, for me, deadlines is part and pacel of life as I'm working in the kitchen. Whenever orders of food comes in, there will be a deadline for me to deliver the already cooked food out within minutes.. And thus produce Stress..

For the whole week of this week, I have gone back to the first department that I have started my attachmet with - The Butchery. Because the Chef that is in charge of that department is, once again, gone for HOLIDAY.. so he asked me to take care of the department for him.. And everyday, I have so much deadlines to meet, that is to provide the meat and seafood that is needed to be cooked to serve to the customers.. So rushing here and there has been a part of my "stay" in the department.. but coming Monday, it will be the last day of my "stay"! End of my stressful week! I just want to thank God for the wisdom in working there..

Tomorrow will be the day that I will know whether I will be retrenched as a trainee.. Yes. You heard it right.. Retrenchment.. And I have heard of the first retrenchment just a few days ago.. that person was a trainee from the pastry department.. The Chef for that department was really upset and angry with the Head Chef and the HR management.. And I have heard that more people will be axed too.. Trainees especially.. I just really hope that I won't be one of them as I have left only 3 more months to the end of the attactment..

"God.. Protect my attachment, that I will not be retrenched.. And that I can finish my attachment.."

Tomorrow will be also the first match of the Inter Hotel Soccer Tournment.. With so much things happening, I don't really know whether all of us has the mood and spirit to even play, when our jobs are not even really secured..



for the past few days, i have been really having a very good workout.. just think of this.. last Wednesday, i had soccer training.. plus, i had RT on Thursday and Sunday, and then the following Sunday, soccer training again.. i'm really getting fit again.. haha!! :)

i felt, for the past few days, that trying to be happy at work was really very difficult.. given the fact that people in the kitchen would do very differently each and individually.. and you really don't know who and what method to follow.. haiz..

Someone showed me something about friendships.. 1 Samuel 20 - it shows us King David, before he is king, and Jonathan, King Saul's Son.. the friendship between King David and Jonathan is one that is very, very close.. as close as brothers in the same blood line.. you see.. David is the king anointed by God.. Jonathan is the rightful heir to King Saul to the throne.. but Jonathan gave his chance to the throne to David, making Daivd the king of Israel, because he knew that David is the rightful one to the throne since he's anointed by God.. and he gave without any complain!! if it's anyone of us, if our best friend should be the righful, anointed one for king, we wouldn't even give up because we get to the rule the country and how cool will that be.. Jonathan DID!!

what i'm trying to say is that.. where can you find such a friendship in the world right now.. people are just looking toward others to get something out from them.. so in order to do that, we need to be FRIENDS with that person.. would you give up something that you want, to someone that is your best friend who is the rightful owner without any complain? that's what is in my mind since the past 2 weeks..


what i have shared may be offensive to some of the readers out there.. but i just get something out of mind somehow.. so i'm sorry that i have offended anyone somehow.. i'm sorry..








I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
Doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps gettin in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
Is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to grey
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I
Gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

What about us?
What about everything we've been through?
What about trust?
You know I never wanted to hurt you
what about me?
What am I supposed to do?
I gotta leave but I'll miss you
I'll miss you

So
I've got to move on and be who I am
(Why do you have to go?)
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
(I'm trying to understand)
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
(I want you to stay)
I gotta go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am
(What about us?)
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
(I'm trying to understand)

We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way